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It's becoming extremely hard for me these days to control my impulse. While I have been good for the most part, there are moments of slip ups that I am having. For an example, yesterday and day before yesterday I was throwing into watching porn for relaxing my mind. I do not think that's a good idea. We need to have self-control as all of our life is dependent on that amount of self control. While I know it's important to enjoy the process and all that good stuff, it should not come at the expense of structure. If I really want to step up to the challenge that she is giving me, I need to focus well. I need to know what's right and what's wrong. So today, like every other day, we are not going to be talking about self control only. The reality is this. What really happens is this. When we are not watching porn, when we are not caught up with lust, we are able to give so much more. That's the first thing. The second thing is knowing that all of this is difficult...